oh the times there are a changing.....

the band has been shooken up! unfourtuantely our lead guitarist since we start as a band looke dawson is leaving us for another, far technically supeirior band. its been good having you looke and i think over your time with the band uve taught me more than any teacher has and id like to formally thank u for your input to my humble guitar playing skills. i wish u all the best with your new band, good luck buddy! and for those that are interested lukes replacement will be eric rollings. eroc you got big shoes to fill buddy but i think your up to it! it shall be interesting to see how the band goes from here wish us luck hey.

once more just to be sure

yet again i get kicked while im down maybe they do it just to be positive that i dont enjoy my childhood as if shit wasnt fucked up enough as it is they take every chance they get to stick the toes in once more just to be sure maybe one day ill get over it and say oh well it was for this best i doubt it but hey its possible for now ill just be pissed off its just easier

not ok

is it ok to feel however you want? im sure everyone has been told at one point or another that, "thats not right" or "how can u say that?" how can any1 have the right to tell any other person how they should think or feel, how they should act or what they should believe. how can any1 humanbeing believe that they are better than any other humanbeing just because they are older smarter richer or even of a different sex. i dont mean like any old bloke could walk in off the street and run the country or perform open heart surgery. i just mean that how can some1 belive they are any better than another person. i ask because i have to deal with that very thing every day. people telling me that how can i say i truly love when im so young, how can i truly hate when im so naieve, how can u do those things to urself how can u poison ur body like that. why is it that every thing i do is percieved as wrong or not right. how can i get by in a world when the best i can do just doesnt cut it? im on this earth for one reason only most ppl know that but while im here ill make the best of the hand ive been dealt. its just that sometimes it gets hard sometimes every thing is too much some times just living is an effort just getting by is too much. why does it have to be so hard i know life isnt fair but this isnt just unfair this is downright shitty and they wonder why suicide is a leading cause of death. life just doesnt end soon enough for some

it wasnt me sir it was the vodka fairies honest it was

wooo party! well some of it any way thanks for showing up and that yeh it was good untill i fell asleep who let me drink so fast i really thought it was later than that but thats kool as long as fun was had and time was filled i suppose cheers guys!

how many kinds of fuckwit can one person be?

to be continued... (stay tuned kiddies):)
*rolls into bush*

another lonely love song

yet again i find myself writing another lonely love song i need some thing new to write about if any1 has some serious suggestions can they please post them and also can ppl post what they think the greatest song of all time was written about not just the song u like atm like the all time greatest song (lyrically) aaand when i was singing this song i realised (again) how crap a singer i am WE NEED A SINGER! NOW! like seriously we do so yeh any1 who knows sum1 would be helpful ok kool thanks kiddies!

since every one seems to know already

howdy i thought since people seem to know already the rest of you can find out from here even if u did already know just pretend u didnt itll make me feel better when i was 14 or 15 i dont quite remember i decided id kill myself id already tried once with poor results some of u may know of my fucked up knee? surfing injury or stepping infront of a bus the truth is blurry now ive lied about it so much but i tried twice more again as u might have guessed didnt manage it again passed out and was found trying to hang myself and tried to overdose on pills also passed out and was found stomach pumps arent fun i can tell you that much from that one but more to the point i decided to stop fucking around and i set a date made a plan and was determined to stick to it id finish gr 11 purge my room and step in front of an express train sounded ok to me so the 21st of november it was and it was going well got rid of all my old school stuff had letters written to every one every one that mattered anyway and i was set to go i had the meth a was going to take then i met ang on the 19th and as most of u can probably tell i decided against it ang u saved my life as pissed as i was at myself at the time how could i have been so weak? how could some girl at school have stopped you? id been planning for months but i just couldnt do it now there was something to live for ok fair enough ill ride it out (the relationship) then kill myself then i fell in love there goes the suicide idea but yeh just thought id let the rest of u know better from me than someone else hey any questions just comment